The last thread ended with these words: “When we indulge in the expectations, we produce a resistance to what happens in this present moment, we try to take refuge in what should be instead of that experience of what it is. And this resistance cramps a dynamic way of living.”
In such a type of dynamic we need to develop attention through the mean of observation to finally achieve a state of awareness.
A human being hides really marvelous, unexpected and huge potentials, but until we realize who we really are, it would be better to leave, for a moment, these possibilities aside just as they are and continue with our path in and through ourselves, because our true nature isn’t realizable through ideas, but only through action.
There’s a desire in the wish to seek, namely an impulse to know, but it has to be “counterbalanced” by a mental openness and the acceptance of the uncertainty. Indeed, if we seek our true nature, we merge ourselves in the field of the unknown – everything that is not involved in what we expect to find.
Otherwise, this impulse to know will become another idea, an expectation that will “transmute” to an illusory and unreal process, such as every other identification.
What we must understand is that mind and “ego” are not our enemies. They are just very important and indispensable tools, and there are no advantages in destroying them. They can be “cleaned” and “purified” to accomplish the functions of active thinking, feeling and the integration of the two without any distortion produced from interpretations.
Every attempt to eliminate the mind and the ego (and even the physical body through mortification) are forms of aversion, and this can only create further illusions.
It’s only through experiencing mind and ego in our daily life that we’ll understand them, and once understood (realized) they’ll stop to be “tyrants” and we’ll stop to fear, letting everything come and go without trying to flee, avoid or destroy anything.
We have really to question ourselves if we are inwardly free, or otherwise, we live stuck in ideas and convictions about all and everything.
A work on ourselves in addition to a meditative practice helps us in this because they “allow” us to see what we are and why/how we behave and react in a determined way.
Every mental and physical reaction must be queried in order to understand. It’s not a cold, detached way of observation, it’s a new way to observe what is happening inside of us, it’s a learning to “hear” ourselves, and this helps us to be aware of what lies beyond the situations and manifestations we experience.
An example: I am nervous, irritated, deluded because of something I heard or experienced; first of all, I have to observe this state of being. I have to delve deep into the core of what I am feeling; but I have to observe this state of being as it is, without judging or interpreting, and only then I’ll be able to see how this reactive process arises and manifests in relation to the environment and others.
When we try to observe in such an impartial way a reactive process, the reality and justifications of this same process are questioned, and as a consequence, we could feel a sensation of nervousness. Indeed, we are accepting the possibility that this process is an “illusion”, and not something that is objectively justified. If we are able to remain impartial and objective enough, despite this agitation, we’ll be able to see from where this condition arises. Indeed, everything that happens has a cause. The ability of looking beyond, passing through the barriers of this agitation without fear when this condition occurs – so in the present moment- allows us to foresee its source.